I’ve found training over the past few weeks really hard. The only way to describe it is I’ve not been feeling myself, I’ve been in a slump, and I just don’t know what’s wrong with me? I’m lethargic, struggling to get out of bed. I haven’t been able to do anything; no walking, no running, no swimming, no reading, no writing, just lying in bed.
I’m use to having energy, and I’m finding it really difficult to deal with this tired, un-energetic me. To try and get me out of this slump I decided to go for a very gentle run down by the beach. I didn’t even make it a mile before I had to stop and walk, my legs didn’t want to function. I decided to push on and try again; I made it about another half a mile before I had to stop. I was so frustrated and angry at myself. I sat down, head in my hands and just cried and let it all out. This is so not like me. I’m not this person, I don’t give up, I don’t stop and quit. I have less than 100 days to go until the Marathon des Sables and I don’t want to be feeling this way.
I walked the mile and a half home, head down, feeling very sorry for myself. I arrived back, it was trainers off and I just got back into bed, I didn’t even have a shower, just climbed under the covers and closed my eyes.
I need to start feeling like me again and get back into my training and building up my endurance; the only way to do this is to get better. I need to go and see a doctor as soon as possible and have a blood test done. I started feeling lethargic after the Men’s Health Survival of the Fittest competition. I must have caught something from the Manchester canals.
The good thing is I’ve taken action and booked a doctor’s appointment for the 9th January, this was the earliest I could get, fingers crossed they’ll be able to tell me what’s wrong. Until then I’ll just have to take it slowly.